Neverending Story

If I was there...I will scream happily...more!!!

Aku suka sangat tengok cerita ni-Never ending story.Aku dah download 9 siri dalam you tube.
Cerita ni aku tengok sekali jer dalam tv,time budak. Pastu aku tunggu2 tak pernah keluar dalam tv. Cerita pasal budak laki baca buku atas loteng sekolah.Munkin sebab nilah,banyak pengaruh aku berimaginasi masa kecik2. Macam realiti jer.
Aku gembira aku dapat download and dapat tengok cerita ni. Aku barujer tengok. Epi semacam. Tapi tak sehappy masa kecik2. Bila aku tengok sekarang aku pun pelik kenapa lah aku suka cerita ni.Hehehe..sebab nampak sangat kartunnya dan tak real bila anjing tu terbang kat awan. Maybe budak tak semua tu.Mereka tak berfikir macam kita.

Bila something yg seronok cukuplah.Hehe.

Kita yang semakin matang ni jer yang tak puas2 nak puas.
Well,bila balik kat rumah mak semalam aku buka astro ada cerita John Rambo.Ni lagi satu cerita feveret aku time kecil.Time ni aku fikir hero akulah rambo dan dialah paling hensem dari arnold. Haha.Bila aku tengok rambo tu,aku tak nak laki macam tu.Hahahahaha.
Pelik tapi benar. Well, cuti dua harini betul2 manfaat dengan tengok cerita2 feveret time kecil.
Aku cuma nak cari vcd Micheal Jackson bila dapat gaji rabu ni....mmmm......boleh menari dalam tandas nanti .(Hihihi).

Aku nak basuh baju kemas bilik siap kerja. Segarnya bangun tidur ni.

Unpaid leave for interview.

Feel great this morning -woke up almost at 09.30am but the interview appointment will be conduct at 10.15am.Luckily I made it by taxi and the company is nearest by. But the most one reason, because there is not traffic.Fuhh.
The interview session was ok.Just a words.And to confide them to hired me and why I was thinking to moveout from the hotel. Huhuhu.This was pretty hard,Luckily the exam just have 2 question not like before I attend which requires me almost 7 essay question.Die Hard dude.
I took unpaid leave today,as I was just under prohibiton, and dont thinks to taking an MC just pretend in front of doctor -doc,Im sick.What the hell.I'm sick. Ya. You sick.Hehe.
I dont prefer meet a doc whenever I sick,either more I'm not.So,Humty Dumty suspected me I did went to interview. Hardly,I lied to Humty Dumty,Sir-is a personal family matters which requires my attention.And urgently,needed to back to my home town mallaca.Ahaks.
So, I heard he ask my seniors to look after me either I was going to interview. Hahaaha..Thats funny. I never known Humty Dumty 'loves' me much.
Yuks.He even ask me to do his personal thing last day-Humty Dumty was looking after the Julies,but she's on leave, And come meet me asking if I was free?...I said no.Repeat. I said no sir.
Wow.So rude am I,Suddenly I feel.But its just heritates me,a while. Then,Humty Dumty urges me to follow up.I did.
He gives me a bunch money and ask can you help to deposited it.
Wow-its working hours.Not relates to work.Its personal.And I was thinking doesn't he knows to use maybank2 u system.Humty Dumty sat on a wall. Just like a phrase I wonder.

I accept.Because I loves outing a while when working hours. Hahahaha.
Luckily I did this,so I fill a form of unpaid leave and he approved.Paid the deeds.(Intentionally)

So,I dont have to folllow the 7 days procedure lead time to approve.Yea Yea.

P/S-I been promised by the interviewer they will call me back after 2 weeks. I dont thjink so I succeed after taking too much time for considering me.Its ok Its alright. Maybe I been destined with this industry.If it was so. I will rethink back. Ameen.

My Explaination

Almost everyday I asked myself why did I ended like this? What is wrong with me? Or what will I be heading on? But,I wont find those explaination. Even closely.
I am 23 years. A stage which i believed a common puzzle feeling stopped by and rest in my mind.I have a lot of this feeling lately.About work,sex,man,woman,workmates,office,home,
money,future,friendship,dream and most oof this i rank it as very sensation to my desires.
Because I think much. And the most is my work. Did I do a right job for future holds me? Did I find out the true? Its much horrible rather than to seek a soulmate.Is there a different between them.Sure.But why wasn't I feel a right one now.To consider satisfied.
At glance I look on my table, I rememberized on how I feel at first time I was been interviewed. I still can feel the feeling on how ambitious I am about my future.Iwas totally prepare 110% to heading on more over the table. I was lucky to have the feeling at that time and I found much lucky they granted me.Despite that, I am also believes that my feeling was true.
Now,I dont know where the feeling goes by. I feel half-empty and sad. Is it because of paid,energy,burn out,or what ever reason. One reason I scared most in my industry was I could been known by him or his mate which may reveals my identity. The most sacry for my part to triggers in lifes,is my sin. My soul sin. My mistake.
And I believes I should go. Far from this. I hope I find my destination cos I am toot ired to stop at anywhere station. I prayed for fullest happiness in love and life. Regards to my devoteness on Him. Ameen.

Vindicated

Sgt marah dan bengang macam bangang jer rasa tak reti nak isi borang SPA tu. Dah sejam. Berapa kali ditolaknya kata aku kena isi qualification sedangkan dah memang dua itujer aku ada-sijil SPM and Degree. Sebelum ni aku keyed in form tu taklar sebangang tu. Okje boleh akses ke next form. Macam biasa gak diisinya.Ni bukan internet problem because I still can akses other pages. Badly.Lain kali jgn hantar surat kat rumah suruh isi kalau page macam ****.
Call my mom to ask the letter did SPA sent-but failed to locate it. Just now beria. Eee...bengang betul lar.Lain kali jangan buka surat tu,kalau dah tak tahu mana nak letak. I always consider everythin mine was personal and I dont like they opened it even though it was just a KWSP statement or whatever as long as my name they refer. But,mom like that. Always what mine is her personal too. I dont like. I dont know why I feel this. I know I should'nt. But what to said.(I rarely hate to said this word)-Just like we cant change and commit just on like that. Let be. Shit. Now,makin marah dgn portal SPA tu dgn Mom.
As what was happen to me, in office with Humty Dumty. He did'nt know any.Just give a ball and push. Come on baby..Tendang. Oh shit dude.Well...there is always a reason for something that do not happen as it should be and also there is also sometime no reason for something that should not be. So Humty Dumty put me in this kind of situation. I can't stand for some state. Because I do feel bad,inner,guilt,and stupid.None make me proud of myself. After I discover or by hook and crook at the end I will feel the same.
So, I hesitate him to sign the document for this moment as I dont like to carry the burden on. And what will be happen next also still burdening me.But I keep it in my heart.
I never realise what will I gain from it. And can't think of it. Its just a feelin was gone of me. I cant feel me.What I want.And why I want them.
So,today embarks me with new shock.I accidentally ask him to sign my MC-and please dont ask me for anything or I will take MC again.It is was bullshit.But considering an award for me and sarcastic for him.But...as I said.Why I want them.
Yesterday and before also bears me with this situation. For moment,I even have a time to revise my plan.So,I do keep walk.But never seen the stair.I stuck.
Mom Sorry.Humty Dumty Tx.Me Cry.Fell it.

MJ (R.I.P)-You Are Not Alone

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

P/S: Suddenly and weird I do like him most after what had happen to him. I feel sorry to his family and pray for R.I.P. In fact, He is a singer that charms me with a "World Song" when I was kid.

Cerita Lepas Balik Dari...Interview

I was been called for an interview today. I set my appointment at 5pm. So, I will get to manage to rush after 4.pm.to clock out(but I clok out 3.58 pm). Two of my closed fren theres know my appointment and also KR,as I can't run from her.
The appointment was so 'big' for me. Too 'much' for a mean time or whatever I don't know the feeling now. It's almost just likely I was feeling bad on it. Either I was too much or too low.
Get the felling was so uneasy for me.
Yes, i were just not prepared for everything at all.Seem like I was just a kid without a toys and seeing people play ball.I come at 4.58. They gave me 3 letters with each got double sided. One is my details, one is my role model, ones is my ability to assessed the problem.
I was thinking it not like this. So, Ok LOL . I will answer, then ( I believed I make them waited).
Then, when the interview was almost start. My hand colds,head also can't think anything.

Three of the HOD come and interview me. The HR, seem dont have any question for me, they look like 50-50 to me. Huhuhu. I was thinking why they called me ma.If just wanna assesed me.
I am not good yet. I feeling that now.. I feel dump.Huhuhuhu.

They just wanted see me maybe. Huhuhu.Why Why. I tak tahu .

I memang ada pernah wish dlm hidup, harap 2 aku ada peluang untuk jadi top management. As internal audit in Risk.But I dont know anything. I tak nak cakap ar.....I dah puas hambur kat my mom by phone. I nak tidur.....huuhuhuhu