Buka Puasa The Adventure

Nama jer adventure. Tapi makanannya tak seadventure mana pun. Lip Lap Lip Lap dah 10 hari kita berpuasa. Tapi tak sehari lagi aku rasa berjaya menunaikan amalan2 sunat dalam fardhu ini. Sedih dan kecewa. Marah dan bingung. Sebabnya aku sendiri tak tahu. Bukan tidak mahu berganjak ke surau asyik ada saja 'persetan' aku ni. Aku sedih lar kalau bulan ramdhan ni aku masih teruk lagi. Bernama manusia yang hina.
Aku ada terfikir nak letak list makan buka puasa aku tapi aku lupa dar apa yg aku makan.
Slow reaction. Hari ni special buka puasa dgn housemate punya kakak, rumah sebelah blok jer. Malu tak malu tp pasal dah tumpang kereta,wajib. One more, nilah rezeki. Betul tak. Mmm.
Aku fikir2 lah nak tidur jer malam ni.supaya esok pergi kerja dengan baik. Tapi rasa malas lar nak kerja. Kenapa. Makan banyak sudah. Aku nak bershopping tadi nak pergi Jusco tapi peleset ramai sgt orang nyer beb.
Aku blah gitu jer. Ahaks. Ni nak wat gapo sekarang ni. Malas dah nak online2 . Aku nak keluar lar. Bye.

Orang Besar Vs.Kroni

Aku tak tahu lah nak cakap dan komen..pas satu..satu hal jadi. Kenapalah manusia suka berdayus sesama sendiri. Bukankan kita dijadikan Tuhan untuk saling melengkapi dan bermanfaat bersama. Kenapa perlu ada penderhakaan,penghinaan,dengki mengkhianati dan bermuka-muka.
Kenapa perlu kita berubah balik seperti di takuk lama dan tidak menuju ke hadapan dan bersedia dengan keadaan semasa. Ada baiknya kita bersama-sama, daripada berpatah balik ke juram .
Dan akhirnya ‘saudara’ sendiri kita gadaikan untuk kepentingan tertentu.
Aku terkedu buat entah berapa kali,sejak akhir2 ini. Aku termanggu dan bingung. Aku mendapat tahu, dr sumber yg boleh dipercayai,sahabat2 sekerja yg pernah meninggalkan ofis ni,akan kembali semula. Semuanya bermula apabila ‘orang besar’ berhenti. Orang penting pula sudah mula mengerakkan langkah mengumpul kroni2 . Bangkit dan kehadapan. Aku tidak kisah. Sungguh aku tidak hairan. Aku sendiri menantikan salah seorang kepulangan kroni tersebut. Namun, aku tersentuh dengan tindak tanduk orang penting,apa yg dikatakan. Ianya seperti satu tamparan hebat bagiku. Seperti satu amaran bahawa ‘jangan bermain api’ dgn berkopiah. Aku tidak hairan. Aku tidak kisah dan endahkan semuanya. Namun aku ada juga terlintas,aku juga orang baru. Mungkin boleh jadi nasibku ditangan berkopiah itu. Apa benar? Aku benci . Ini aku tidak suka. Aku tidak suka orang membelangi aku dan berani memikirkan aku ini boleh dilakukan sedemikian. Mereka silap. Mereka salah.!!!
Pun begitu. Aku rela mencari lubang sendiri dari dipijak mati.Aku menunggu masa itu dating dengan sabar. Dengan tawakal aku hanya mahu belajar sebanyak mungkin disini.
Kemudiannya, aku mendengar bermacam2 lagi nasib malang. Aku salah seorang juga. Aku merasakan pemburuan kroni ini hanya permuafakatan dalam gunting lipatan. Permuafakatan dalam Kekronian.
Aku berdoa aku tidak goyah sekalipun aku jatuh. Bangkit dan majukan diriku seribu ratus kali dari harapan mereka. Tunjjukan mereka sekebal aku agar aku bangkit menjuarai dr mereka dari segi keihsaniah dan compension of human beliefing. I will show them Love to be kind will win and win.
No Hesitate, My destiny was not been judging by them.

Konon-kononnyer.

Halo....U are there...Buzzz...!! Konon2nyer..-aku ada member 'best' suka guna ayat ni. Konon2 nyer.
Mmm..dah jadi member plak...lepas admire. Mmm..well tx susah payah aku tunggu dia buzz aku, or ym aku dulu drpd aku . Akhirnya termakbulgak, tak sangka dia mcm nak borak best jer. Konon2 nyer lar. Kot..? Huhuhu.
Then kami cakap sikit2-belagak banyak2.
Dia send lagu raya...and purpose aku buka lagu tu time keje. Nak mati lol. Kalau new girl bisisng mulut macam ****.
Mmm..aku dgr2 ramai nak quit -reason not good performance or no 'performance'. Which one lor..?..Masalah betul, Aku bila nak cabut ni. Sayang sebab tak cukup setahun beb.
Biler lar...raya tahun depan ker...hisyk hisyk..
bila nak khawin plak....hek elek...melodrama ni,S.T.O.P.!!!

Jom mandi....

MY SEX PHILOSOPHY

What make us think when this word-S.E.X. come to our's mind. ? Does there is a different answer when its comes from gender too? Or its just a 'blow-out' word rather than sensual feelings. Yes,it is just a 'plain tone' if it was just to filling a form to stated our sex-female or male.
But,what was it about when it comes to the real 'SEX'. Man and woman -sexual relationship. Does SEX really seem like that or more?
SEX is SEX. SEX is FUCKING, or SEX is LOVE.
There's is a few situation. Let's examine.
First, if you have been intercourse it with your's boyfriend/girlfriend-regardless fun or not. Does it really worth for the moment. Do SEX drive you or FUCKING drive you. Think about it.
Some may claimed it was LOVE. Thats was what our mommy and daddy tought and shows to us. Both are living together,and love,and birth,and sex.In all, it was a LOVE. And there's still want to pointed out LOVE IS BLIND. Think twice.
And if it was just a one night stand. Does this was a great comfort zone? Lets, called it one buck fuck.Why not? We drive it. After all,if we were one of the situation, we may consider ourselves.
All of us just drive SEX for nothing. I am human.And of course SEX drive me too.
But,please concise me to make this judgement.
As a woman,sex could be my no.2 priority generally. Or lower than that for some girl outside.
And maybe no.1.I am asean,not to be judge as a white people who are more 'open' on this issue.
But are more pleased to stand and point out my views about it. I know and I want.
Importantly,for me to having a SEX with a right man to be loved for and worthy to be.
He maybe just a nerdy as newspaper seller or even to a body-builder. The things thats was coming inside was just more than fucking. Wonder!!!
Its not my wish-when someone ask me for it. Or when I wish it too. I will always reminds myself.There's is always more SEX appeal to be joy for rather real or not.
Being a virgin just not a hope,or to show off in my environment living. But its more as a principle-philosophy of me. Im not fucking lust,slut,or jerk.
As long as I was not into that.I consider myself as grateful. And I have never think that I was narrow minded. Cause after all,you can't imagine how was imaginative I am.
Just to remind,this post was not to shout out the SEX is NO, or SEX is FUCKING.
But rather as SEX is YES,and SEX is someone ideality to show her/himself of being together with. Be what yourself wanted to be,not what we want people wanted to adore us. Be SEX with someone more 'accurate' in 'accurate' time. Make yourself a higvalue SEX drive. Not a SLUT of it. Got it. You will realized when it's comes to your turn. When,SEX giving you nothing.

Be Judgemental. Thanks.

Kerjaku BERTAMBAH-TAMBAH....!!!

Kalau hari2 minggu sebelum ni, aku akan ke Mid Valley. Sekarang aku lebih banyak masa berada di Ofis.Kerja diatas meja aku tak pernah surut.Tak sempat ku follow-up,datang yang lain untuk up-to-date. Tak sempat ku selak ketepi,datang yang lain 'mengganggu'. Rupanya, beginilah 'hidup bergaji' seorang pekerja diatas meja bersegi. Sayangnbya,soal gaji masih tergantung. Kadang2 ada juga aku memikirkan untuk memutuskan tali gantung tu. ASAP!!

Aku dapat satu kerja extra dari Humty Dumty-kerja milik anak syarikat. Tapi kenapa aku yg kena buat. Walaupun ada sedikit pengetahuan tapi sedikit gaji tak memadai memujuk hatiku. Sudahlah aku ditipunya naik gaji. Kenapa tidak minta sahaja orang 'sana' shj buat. Tahupun, kami di'sini' loagi baik dari sana. Entah sedar ketidak lagi. Boleh pujuk aku buat-cakap dgn perlahan. Ok.Fine. I am good one. Of course Tin Kemik boleh buat. Tapi Tin ad abyk kerja -so minta delayed. Taknak pula.

Dimintanya datang Ahad. Cuti pun diselidik. Annual leave pun bersengketa. Susahnya.

Tin.Cepat bangun dan lari.OK!!!!

Hero-Hero Moden Drama Melayu

This new guys yang sedang naik...I salute to his acting. Not too bad, he has a good sense of emosional and feeling in his drama. First,I noticed him in Sindarella.He's just look very typical in acting,still new and blurred. Yet, I don't have a 'qualification' to talk more about him as I dont know him well and since when he was in this industry also I do not have the answer for it. So my comment solely based on as a typical fan for TV shows.

In Sindarella I rasa dia ni ada jer rupa, but perhaps lakonan maybe as second man jer. But I was wrong,bila I tengok ceritanyer dalam NurKasih,mungkin garapan pengarah dan penerbit Khabir Bhatia which we-Malay people sedia maklum how was KB shows for Malay cerekarama but this time NurKasih was quiet different and I gives applaused for it.

I dont have time to made a research on him background-and I hopes so. He cought my interest because he reminds me to my admirer. I did secret admirer one guy just looks like him in my class. He better off to be with others girl than me. I know.

Just I do a guy like him-smart and casual. Is Remy also appear to be so? I dont know.

But lately, we has a lot of Hero Melayu naik dalam filem dan drama-drama. Among are Fizow Omar,Adi Putra,Kamal Adli(Hero BioNik),Ery Putra,Fahrin,Zack X Factor,Aron Aziz.

Rasanya2 dalam kalangan ni siapakah yang layak digelar Hero Drama? Because, I lihat they all just ahve a looks not to consider the talented one. Maybe I nak puji Zack, since dah jadi pengganti AC Mizal untuk lakonan2 TV2 Hero Drama bawah arahan sekutu 'ala-ala macam gerak khas'. Penggunaan Bahasa Malaysia dia pun dapat tingkatkan.

Yang lain, Fahrin and Aron Aziz is best to rate. Ery Putra asyik2 bawa gaya muka sama, and cebikan kening ala-ala Shah Rukh Khan. Yang lain harap muka. But, still wish them all the best and may succesful in their careers.

P/S: Mungkin Zul Yahya Kaber Hero Kaber Zero. Nerdy one.

Will He Make a U-Turn?

Remember Jolie? I did mention about Jolie in this old post blog. About how was myself into him,and also,about how was he did a quick resign in the office. I didn't purposely brought up this name,as he was not my favour anymore. Though myself has already forgot what have he said to me. Just a few days,Snow white told me that the 'return' of him could be in a corner.

What? I am shocked and really blur-not only despite of the 'return',but more. Could it be more badly news from this if Humty Dumty heard about it,or the rest knows it-all. All appears in my minds,was he will be able to have a good 'shit' after all what he throw to us. Was he is really a money-face. Was he really knows how was he so spoilt and ruins the clouds within he's ego.

The ego which was he 's really proud to 'back off' from the company. Restless.

It stopped until there. And I heard ours' ED did call him to joint back the company,regardless the power of ED-I am sure Humty Dumty may flown away too. And me,no have respect to him.

I dont like him suddenly after all what I had seen the 'remarkable left'.So,the form had been filled-up,and the possition is new. I hope everything was ok for me,if he make a 'u-turn'.

And there's is no 'bluffing' words he spread or what. He's jerk,He's no shame and he was just a squid. For me from now on.

P/S: The squid was really a good dishes for me.

KING KONG

I first watched this movie in cinema. Somewhere around plaza complex in Seremban, with my uncle and nephew during my stay there.

It was a great to rate by mean-neglected the facts 'King Kong' loves. The part where Ann Darrow and King Kong enjoying sunset-awesome me,if I were able to do so with someone to love.

Suddenly. it reminds me to the comments of the King of Bollywood,SRK,who did claimed it was just a kind of nonsense King Kong fell in love with a blonde woman. This is just a 'return critism' after himself also have been critized by Hollywood on one of his film too. I did read this about, but forget where does the source is. Correct me if I'm wrong.

My opinion,regardless how nonsense,or how believeable it can be or not,it was just a 'big' film on year 2005,after all that's what we call a 'film'. I enjoying and feel the sad between the 'big' Ape itself with Ann. Another remarkable movies from Hollywood by Peter Jackson.

Could be this is how was PJ 'benchmark' himself - just what he did in The Lords of the Rings.

Between the believable and nonsense- there is a 'woah' sound come out from our's mouth, the eager mind wonder what will be happening-is just a nice feeling to have rather than a melodrama 'film'.

Confession in Conformation

I have been called to Humty Dumty room,and he shocked me by reading one-by-one of my appraisal form in between i was still under prohibition. The new girl,she hired which we believes was his colleague in previous employment too was there. Seem like too conspiracy to be there early in the morning. So,while his was judging me and given some point with reason to be marked so,I listen carefully which room I need to improves. And by the way,new girl was beside me listening too and joted some in her red small book.
I smile seeing both and this situation make me a confusion worst when suddenly Humty Dumty suddenly pronounced to make this confirmation early and is due out by the HR. He urges me to be sign and along the time he saying what was the opportunity I might unseen in this company. He sounds very proudly to be heard by someone who hoping the boss is planning to upfront us. However,I insist to be remain silent. I was too 'pop' what was I heard.
For me,theres must be a reason on all of this. Since, a lot have tender recently. One of that could be yesterday-which I was suddenly not as usual in a good mood when that new girl came by and ask me regarding some report which need to be expected come out by me. And this report was really 'hacks'. It's should be in end of the cloud after we already confirm what it's should be. Just a double work.
Instead of easily received the document, i feel sacks,as it was 7.00pm late evening,and I was just feeling been useless to be there in that moment time. So, i did raise my voice to my colleague who sit beside me. I am sayin if there will like if suddenly I come out with a report-which is a tender. Hopefully they will knows me well. I believe the new girl may heard this and she was suddenly appear in the door and look us. I ignore her.
Just tommorow-early in a morning I was been called. Just only to be confirmation.
And despite my dillema-in between of either I was really sure to commit here for another half year or maybe end to 2 years.Thus is it reallyworthy for me? In this hotel industry?...Was really annoyed me.
I havent make up my mind. And yet still waiting the answer from others parties. But at end I admit I feel I should be here because I already been favourable with the family and work -the environment. Even the task work was completely is my big dillema either it was worthy for me or not-yet I still believes thats hopefully I get some others better offer.
On paid and improves my financial lacks. Yet it is the most and wont let me feel guilty. However,why is the hardest question for me to answer them.
So, when confront them about this here is our dialouges:

Humty Dumty:

We really appreciates your attitudes and I do find you can be somebody up here. You just need a room to improves and we will be glad to teach you and guide you. .(Meaning for me I was very good to be trustworthy for a moment time for them in term conduct the work without refusal)

New Girl:

You have a degree,and you come from an external background,and u pick up our needs and understand what we want-easily talk and understand what we want.(Meaning for me I was just nothing yet for them)

Then I silent......which at end....all this sense words was not really reflects with what they mentioned earlier when reads my appraisal form just now. I have been critized much more and never yet satisfied them.

At end...I soundly.

I:

Sir,may I ask for something-if possible there is a confirmation for me.Could I ask for a raise paid.(And I ask for a thousand seven possible which I request at a time I been recruit but did not get it as a reason I still new)

Both was ok....listen...and...

Humty Dumty:

Im not sure is there mention in the employment contract rates and I will relook after it and discuss it about to HR.(Still very dangerous,as I know they wont do it)

New Girl:

Listen

I:

And sir, please,I think I need a weeks to think it of.Please let me reconsider it.

Humty Dumty&Girl:

SHOCK !!!!...HUH!!!..Why what was happen....you dont want to get to confirm....you are geeting sick of this all this work..company...or what..?

I:

No....silent...No....and silent.

Humty Dumty:

(His raise his voices and harsh me ...pushing me...treaten me) as if I was not just his only hopes. I can go if I want and he can make to live even theres is a case before likely.

His pointing fingers in front of me....just feeling unsecured ....yet he urges me to let him know my by confirmation asap-by tomorrow or 2 days. Otherwise,he will already get someone.

And I:

Suddenly was feeling so loose.With a word his punch me. Neither a power he dont gives me a chances to be politely thinking for a day.Then I said...Ok...you can find other...and I out.

I see you later sir.

With tears...not sad..just tension..and i released it at a staircase.

New girl come by and chase me out. At a same time I can heard she was complaint to Humty Dumty that he was too overly react. And make such a cold turkey.

And I was crying in front of her.Sadness. And blindness what was happen just now was wrong and she asking me why I am crying do I feel guilty. I am .I feel guilt to be here now in front of this hack.

But actually we make up and talk what was about I am worrying much. And not all was true. As its lies behind my mind. And at last when we meet Humty Dumty again he apologizes me.And he was at end of word..so u want to be confirm.

As I dont want it to be cloudly. I said Yes.Ok.

Still he insist was it today or Friday. New girl rush this on me. Today..she loudly sound. And at a time I knows there was just worry if I will going out this company within 7 days rather than one month notice period if I was been confirmed. And they just trapped me.

I feel dumped. I dont want to fight and long neck with them. Its enough. It was actually my worst action. And I blame myself. I dont feel happy as what has already happen. Now..do the tear really captures their sympathize or just look me more weaker.

Guys,one of the reason they want me to be here, just to be post as a GL for the company and replace KR.Which the ones I always hatred most the situation to be in.Then she was just an old woman which I agreed most she is suit one to be there after what she had through. Im not even strong to betrayed her by replace the job as far i was listen what she feels and gives her back rub. And get a lesson from her. After what we all had gone through and on what the company jeopardizes her ages -due to her ages54 so thas why she cant be permanent,and also using me to cut cost. With unrevealed ability I haven't proof for moment. This is a dillema.

I wish I hope I feel I should go. But where?

SINGLE AND HAPPY BUT CAN'T SLEEP.

Itsn't weird to post this title....(I was thinkin).But,it seem not to be for me now.The tiltle single and happy was me. Unfluctuated just like an economy crisis. But I just can't sleep. Why. I was so tired but can't sleep. Is it becoz I'm full,or thirst. Huhuhu. I ate domino pizza-supposely to be very familiar for my weekend job. But I didnt think I will go for it for time being. Eating pizza while looking on a website on how to loss fat-at least make a considerable and can be forgive.
Aye.
Then, I'm run a burn-out cd-hopefully to be sleepless tonite. And now.....what was happen. I still cant sleep and thinking bout the golden falls.
I know. I should do what I suppose to do.At least it burn my headache. Aye. Till that my eyes will close.
Follow me. Bye.