Love Flood

"....for a long time........I have been logged in to blogger site" and I have to recover the password I have forgotten. Even I have taken much time longer to think now what I have to share with you guys.

I do not recall why I did not post any update, I feel sorry for that. Looking up the unknown visitor, I am afraid if there is someone found me. Why? Because it seem like you started to let others know your weaknesses.

I also have been lost updating my current post, my situation and about the songs and melody swelling in my heart. The desire is almost unwelcoming myself.

I had changed a lot from my day to my past.

I had seek out the real dream, loyal lover, and break heart to someone.

I had run from inner self, and lost to the outside world.

I had changed my job,my way, my think and my expectation.

But I found out, love make me so.

Love make me fell too much loveless.

Love is me without him more. And I let it go slowly to resist the pitfalls.

I want to tell him, that I feel guilt started seeing with other guy. Because I am so fast.

I want him to know, that in a present I was talking with the guy, I hold my hand phone dialing his number to feel him. I wish him know, that I do feel him that most of the time.

And most of it, when the guy said he love me, I could not reply as I feel most to him.

And thats what the story of my love should be end. The moment he said Be Happy.

I started thinking the right for me. For the first I feel, he is happy and I am smiling.

And that was the time I feel most good to let everything goes beyond me.

I tested by call, chat, see him in cam, and he miscall, with my call. And it is proof love is lesser. It much more on feeling to own and to feel guilty. This is totally wrong for me.

And he had proven also, he is not worth it for the ball. The hard most I have to feel.

But facts does hurt.

I pray a new love tenderness are genuine. Much more romantic. Feeling deep inside and warmth. I admit I try.

May God forgive me,May God blessed me, Amen.