Vindicated

Sgt marah dan bengang macam bangang jer rasa tak reti nak isi borang SPA tu. Dah sejam. Berapa kali ditolaknya kata aku kena isi qualification sedangkan dah memang dua itujer aku ada-sijil SPM and Degree. Sebelum ni aku keyed in form tu taklar sebangang tu. Okje boleh akses ke next form. Macam biasa gak diisinya.Ni bukan internet problem because I still can akses other pages. Badly.Lain kali jgn hantar surat kat rumah suruh isi kalau page macam ****.
Call my mom to ask the letter did SPA sent-but failed to locate it. Just now beria. Eee...bengang betul lar.Lain kali jangan buka surat tu,kalau dah tak tahu mana nak letak. I always consider everythin mine was personal and I dont like they opened it even though it was just a KWSP statement or whatever as long as my name they refer. But,mom like that. Always what mine is her personal too. I dont like. I dont know why I feel this. I know I should'nt. But what to said.(I rarely hate to said this word)-Just like we cant change and commit just on like that. Let be. Shit. Now,makin marah dgn portal SPA tu dgn Mom.
As what was happen to me, in office with Humty Dumty. He did'nt know any.Just give a ball and push. Come on baby..Tendang. Oh shit dude.Well...there is always a reason for something that do not happen as it should be and also there is also sometime no reason for something that should not be. So Humty Dumty put me in this kind of situation. I can't stand for some state. Because I do feel bad,inner,guilt,and stupid.None make me proud of myself. After I discover or by hook and crook at the end I will feel the same.
So, I hesitate him to sign the document for this moment as I dont like to carry the burden on. And what will be happen next also still burdening me.But I keep it in my heart.
I never realise what will I gain from it. And can't think of it. Its just a feelin was gone of me. I cant feel me.What I want.And why I want them.
So,today embarks me with new shock.I accidentally ask him to sign my MC-and please dont ask me for anything or I will take MC again.It is was bullshit.But considering an award for me and sarcastic for him.But...as I said.Why I want them.
Yesterday and before also bears me with this situation. For moment,I even have a time to revise my plan.So,I do keep walk.But never seen the stair.I stuck.
Mom Sorry.Humty Dumty Tx.Me Cry.Fell it.